Then What

I don't like using my blog for posts about me.  I feel life for me is all about my family.  However I am going to vent a little about one of my health issues.  Please feel free to completely ignore this post!  I am having a bit of a pity party today even though I know people with much worse issues every once in awhile I just get a little down.

For several years my asthma has been fairly well controlled. I still have flair ups and an occasional attack, but nothing that lingers on like it used to when I was younger.  Suddenly this year I cannot seem to get it under control.  It has gotten so bad that they have put me back on my lovely steroids which I have been able to avoid for a long time.  I have missed several days of work and still nothing is working.  I must note too that I am not the most pleasant person to be around when I am on this medication.  Some people do okay with it, I do not.  I can't eat, I can't sleep, I get extremely emotional, I get frustrated to tears over the simpleest things.  Thank god I have been blessed with a wonderful family...patient parents, husband and daughter.

Now though I am confused.  My whole life they have told me my asthma was severe.  Now the doctor tells me he thinks my asthma has advanced to another stage.  I'm curious what comes after severe? 

Another week on steroids, avoiding all the triggers I can, doing absolutely nothing and see where we are then.  Then the next week lung function tests a change of daily meds and then in a couple of more weeks more lung function tests.  The crazy thing is this new medication will be the last new option.  I have taken everything else there is so I wonder then what.  What happens if this new medication does not work?  I am 31 I have a soon to be 4 year old who I hate having to tell "I'm sorry honey mommy can't go for a walk, or mommy can't go to the park, or mommy can't walk downstairs to play."  I also do not like the fact that at this age between my two diseases I am taking four daily medications which if I was not taking we could put away enough money for Kassi to go to any college she ever desired!

If at 31 I have gone from severe to whatever is after severe then what comes next?